4 years to date

I smiled
She argued
The busses left me with no name for beauty.
Round 2
Waiting in line just to bullshit reality into the ugly truth of humans and politics. Flashy smiles and time beats me down to finally make the first move like the boy does. Walking that room maybe I grew into a man but seated next to her my world just changed forever and now it was off its tracks.
Sas
Was her name, never leaving my memory and now to this day I loved her and she me but I cont but she stopped and dropped me into the rivers of the never can be and I jumped in to save it only to end in California.
Away from everyone
Why repeats everyday and I just say it was the right thing no matter how much I miss everything. Bc in the end 4 years is kind of short and I can go back to where it feels like home.

I remember why I left on the inside but outside I act part just to…

My mistake now I can’t cause more pain I need to buck it up and hopefully it’ll all work out or at least that’s what I keep telling myself….what do I know

Truth is the wrong path in this case. Tough it out, try to live up to it all. Just keep telling yourself that this is what you do. You get by on your own, you don’t need anybody but as the lies pour out you keep speaking them desperate to believe one side more than the other
I don’t need no body but I need em. I need my friend but I have to keep going I have to keep pushing. It’s the small dumb things that punch me over. Wow if only I thought more and worked more
I wouldn’t be here. Maybe id b in her arms

Or not

I need what I worked for. I served it up and they put it on the platter and sent it back like a rare steak ordered well done.

I need my bro. I miss him maybe he can convince me in person that I just have to keep on trucking it and I can do it ill believe anyone but myself I have so much doubt I need to be assured before the breakdown commences. Once it starts the very hell we fear breaks loose with no fence its limitless

I need