VDAY

its been so long since Valentine's actually meant something to me
prob in 2006 was the last time i actually had a girl i could call mine on this so call special day just for lovers

but are we not all lovers, in some way

so for the past 5 years feb 14 only means one thing to me, its my uncles birthday
but besides that it is just another day in this short month

im not a cynic, not in any way
im a hopless romantic in fact
yes it is hard to beleive. but its true.
im all for love i just never get the chance to prove it, lack on confidence and a misunderstood stutter can do that to ya but ive learned to be alone, im so use to it it should be criminal
no one should know this feeling of loneliness but i do and it hurts but doesnt sting as much anymore
its an age old wound, though it may never close the pain numbs itself

this feb 14 2011
i will be taking a test, studying for another one and doing 3 sections of math, a journal and interviewing the cheif of police at my campus for the paper and thats it
maybe oh maybe will i be able to escape to a tattoo parlor downtown
in search of an artist who can draw my broken cage and fill it wiht emptyness and sprinkle it with words
thats the one thing that i might be able to do but i doubt it, witht the work piling up and my mentality im crossing the threshold to insanity, and the feeling that i am actually busy.
to raise your bubbly glasses and cheers to the ones who found love and chin up to all thsoe who didnt or choose not too, there is next year, now drink.