rant rave and bitch, it cures the soul

She will be loved-Maroon 5

I never though it would come to this
the sounds of slamming doors
squeaking breaks
and sparks flying all while i burn rubber going round the track

there is barely a winner
because i drive and go the distance but always seem to mess it up
my though process is like going round in Circe's and getting no where fast, no matter how much pressure i put on the accelerator
Now your gone-Basshunter

i faintly get the world but i dont have to love it
it and the humans greed, when they say education is everything, so that's why a school costs over 30k, ya it makes sense if you don't think about it

i despise hearing about how baked people were last night, how baked there going to get, the California flag should be changed, but hey, that's me
is it like this everywhere?

maybe but prob not this bad, we just love our pot too much

the weather is the only thing California has going for it

a 20min drive should never take 45 mins, Ive put more miles on my car and really, i have gone NO WHERE

and ya i get it all the time, its my fault
i can do something about it
but in the retrospect, no i cant.
its not that easy
so please stop with the cliche remarks

everything i want has a dollar sign on it and I'm not materialistic

VDAY

its been so long since Valentine's actually meant something to me
prob in 2006 was the last time i actually had a girl i could call mine on this so call special day just for lovers

but are we not all lovers, in some way

so for the past 5 years feb 14 only means one thing to me, its my uncles birthday
but besides that it is just another day in this short month

im not a cynic, not in any way
im a hopless romantic in fact
yes it is hard to beleive. but its true.
im all for love i just never get the chance to prove it, lack on confidence and a misunderstood stutter can do that to ya but ive learned to be alone, im so use to it it should be criminal
no one should know this feeling of loneliness but i do and it hurts but doesnt sting as much anymore
its an age old wound, though it may never close the pain numbs itself

this feb 14 2011
i will be taking a test, studying for another one and doing 3 sections of math, a journal and interviewing the cheif of police at my campus for the paper and thats it
maybe oh maybe will i be able to escape to a tattoo parlor downtown
in search of an artist who can draw my broken cage and fill it wiht emptyness and sprinkle it with words
thats the one thing that i might be able to do but i doubt it, witht the work piling up and my mentality im crossing the threshold to insanity, and the feeling that i am actually busy.
to raise your bubbly glasses and cheers to the ones who found love and chin up to all thsoe who didnt or choose not too, there is next year, now drink.

smells like cake

when i breath her in, she smells of cupcakes and cookies,
but this story is not about her, its about me and the journey that i have to take.
the one whee she makes me realize something about the status quo and how its horrible wrong, how i should throw up arms and dont settle for less
how i am ok with it but morally i know better
she is my cause for revolution
shes my spark and my rebellion waiting
waiting in me like a gun on the clock waiting to fire that explosive round

dont fall

i hide behind these rims
but i aint playing hide n go seek
this is not a game this is real life

so go start the clock, the hour glass with x years
evermore spitting sand down its tunnel, dont wait before its too late
react, and live

this is who i am,
i am not perfect
i fail to have perfect vision so this is who i am
so life with ur imperfections and declare who you are

don't put up with people who criticize you,
there just insecure about there self made images
they are the flawed one, for they be cracked down the middle of their soul

they are the broken, we are the movement behind the nation

Ive hid behind plastic far too long, i have been caged but no more
the streets will run black
black from the ink of the lies being sold and destroyed
every time you let a lie stand a good person falls
so hurry up ad stand up before all the pieces fall down and then there is nothing left worth fighting for

when society says run, you yell no and stand the ground
its not the popular move but it is the necessary one

when the nation stands on stilts you realize there is something lacking
so move your strongest piece, the pawn

long time

is life a game or a challenge
or the peak of the mountain
its all of the above and a chance to be free and ahve fun

fuck it, its only moeny
give way to chances and let the die fall on the streets or the apartments in New York
spin the bottle and kiss the queen or the geek
to each his own, pick your poison, the geek maybe your queen

swallow your first sin of pride adn act within your own impulsive nature, never stay captured, run like the gazelle

its only a game, a game where you only have one life so act with no means, live like moeny is nothing more than dirt, breath deeply and be statisfied.

live on the edge and jump